My dear friend and astrologer Michelle Gregg gave me a transit chart reading (where the planets are now) to help me understand what’s going on energetically with the world and with me.
 
In the world perspective is Uranus/Pluto squared (challenging energy). This is a signal of tremendous transformation, big world changes. This same configuration took place in the 1930s-40s, the 1960s, and now, with major gender changes and shattered world views.
 
For me, the major upheaval is a mix of Pluto crossing Chiron in the 7th house in opposition to Cancer in the 1st house. Pluto is the planet of transformation. It brings up all the dark nasties to be examined and healed. Chiron represents where you’re wounded. The 7th house is about relationships and the 1st house is about the Self. To simplify, now is the time for all the issues with self-esteem, self-respect, self-worth, and self-love to come up for examination and healing. All those experiences from my past when I wasn’t valued or respected. All the times I haven’t loved myself or didn’t feel loved. All those moments when I criticized myself and compared myself to others and felt less than. That dark, grungy stuff I carry inside is just waiting for understanding, for some compassion and forgiveness, for me to say “I love you no matter what.”
 
So how do I deal with that? Every night before bed I say the Forgiveness Prayer by Lisa Barnett. [You can find it on p. 48 of the March/April 2017 issue of the Conscious Life Journal.] I forgive all those who have hurt me, those I have hurt, and, last but not least, I forgive myself for any hurts to myself. And during the day, I catch my negative thoughts and turn them into positive ones by sending love, love, love to all parts of me.
 
What’s coming up for you to heal? Find out what guidance Michelle has to offer. 

Some years ago I hired a business coach to help me expand my gourmet brownie company. She gave me a multiple-choice question test to determine how I "am" in the world. The test included a number of statements that leaned toward Christian philosophy and I struggled with my answers since I wasn't raised in the Christian faith. After I finished the test, she tallied the results and pronounced that I resonated with the Service category. In my ignorance, all that came to mind was visions of missionaries in the jungles of Africa, and I surely did not want to do that or be that.

Now, after many years on my spiritual path, I have a greater understanding of the word "service." Service is how you operate in the world. It is a way of giving to others, of helping others. Using your gifts and talents to lift others up, to motivate, encourage, and inspire them. And that is truly my path.

When I sat in the quiet the other day, my question to my angels, guides, and Spirit was, "How can I be of service?" This is what I heard.

Go within and pray. Not a prayer as you usually think, but a pray-ing, a request, an envisioning of your desires. You are a magnificent manifestor. Just look at all you have created around you—your friends, your business acquaintances, your teachers and healers, the network of people who love and support you, your gorgeous house, your amazing body, the endless creativity you tap into. You want for nothing and yet you still have doubts. Cast those doubts aside and look within.
 
Look within to the peace of your heart. The white shining light that is unconditional love. That love is always with you, always for you, always beside you. It IS you. You cannot be without it. So when you are going out in the world let this love be your guide. When you are wishing and hoping and desiring something or someone, let this love be your guide. Ask yourself, “If I am love, what would I do? How can I be of service?” And then await the answer.
 
There is no need for patience. You do not need to test yourself with situations in which you can exercise patience. Simply be. Be with the love. Every moment. Every breath. Whenever doubt arises, ask again, “If I am love, what would I do?” And resonate with that feeling.
 
Let love fill the walls of your cells and echo through the chambers of your organs. Let love fill your muscles and bones and ligaments and radiate outward until your skin is glowing. Become a vessel of love. See that white light stream through you and surround you so that you are encased in love. And with this love, and from this love, is how you will be and do.
 
We are all here to love, so there is really nothing to DO but be the love that you already are. It is just a matter of remembering. A recalling of the divinity that you came from, that Sourced you, that place and time you return to when you dream. Be the love that fills you up and then watch in amazement what miracles transpire.
 
This is the blessing we give to you, the blessing that is yours and has always been yours. Be Love. That is all.